Another 5 months planned

[Courtney]

Last night when I got to Mike and Danielle's for our workout session, I saw our new posterboards sitting there all finished. Boy it was just as intimidating looking at that empty board as it was on January 1st!!! We took them down to the basement to hang them up and began talking about what's going to happen over the next 5 months and what happened over the past 5 months. I actually set a goal this time. It made me super nervous to set a goal but I really needed to do it. My #1 goal was to lose at least 54 pounds. My serious kick ass scary goal is another 70 pounds. If I lose 70, that will put me super near where Danielle is right now looking all fab. If I lose 54, that will take me below 200 and put me in "one-derland". Both of those numbers sound huge and scary to me but if I continue to work hard and not mess up during the week, I should be able to reach at least the 54 pounds.

I can't remember the last time I was under 200 pounds. I've never paid attention to my weight so I have no idea when I weighed anything. I am guessing that I weighed under 200 maybe my senior year in high school? But I'm not sure. I am even more afraid this 5 months than I was the last 5 months of failure! I know it takes a ton of hard work and I won't be getting the huge numbers that I got in the beginning.

Mike and I were talking last night and he said "I'm surprised you didn't lose more weight." It was hard hearing someone else say it but I was thinking the same thing!!! I had/have so much to lose that I thought for sure I would have lost at least 80 or more. I had a few zero's and I had 2 gains over the last 5 months. They weren't big but any gain makes it more difficult! If I can take those zeros and gains out, I should be ok this time. It's going to be hard! ;)

Anyway, that it all I have for right now. I just wanted to write down my thoughts and get it off my chest. It's been on my mind a ton lately and I needed to get it out.
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[Lara Kretler]

Court, you are doing AMAZING. The longer we keep up these good habits, the stronger they become ingrained in us as "normal" and the easier it becomes to keep that good, positive cycle going. I know you're going to rock out over the next 5 months just as you did in your earlier days on program. I am so proud of you and can't believe we get to be a part of your journey! Thanks so much for all your great posts on here. :)